That moment you feel the shadow of life is about to come over you, like an intense black cloud that extinguishes all light around. Making you want to hide somewhere deep down in a cave of isolation for all that is penetrating your whole being and weighs so heavy. Colors you black and takes you to nomansland, down into this black hole and you never seem to hit the ground. That what is sucking up your soul and leaves a bad taste in your mouth. The light has gone out.
It’s just a shadow. A heavy cloud that is passing by. It’s not you. You are not darkness, although it might feel like since your whole system is drenched in it. You experience it. But it’s not yours. So don’t make it your own. Because if you do that, it will hold on and this makes it even more difficult to let it go.
Don’t run away. It will follow you.
Don’t hide. It will find you.
Don’t push it away. It will come back
Don’t numb. It will become even more alive.
All it asks for is that it wants to be seen for what it is. Just a black cloud. Nothing more, nothing less. One that comes, and may hamper your sight for a while, but always goes if you allow it to.
It demands a lot of courage to stand strong in the midst of a storm. Being vulnerable. Open to all there is. Acknowledge that life isn’t all about sunshine, rainbows and unicorns.
It can be rough, rude and extremely painful. But you don’t have to be swept away by suffering.
Pull yourself back into the present moment. Breathe. Know that this cloud will pass. Focus on the present moment. And sure, there will be big waves wanting to lift you up and smash you against the shore and threatening big thunderstorms declaring the end of the world.
It is not. It’s the flow of life. The start of something new. The gateway to the light.
We live in a dualistic world, consisting of opposites on an endless continuum. Light and darkness can exist in the same time.
When darkness creeps in, the sky cracks open and light shows itself in a much more powerful way than you’ve ever seen before. If you stay in your self created cave you will never see. In the midst of the storm is the place to be.